i am so stinking impatient

Well still no call,  and this is really trying my patience, I have never been an extremly patient person.  I have mellowed just because I am getting older I quess, but this is a little much.  It has been three weeks from the intial interview.  I didnt get a whole lot done yesterday becuase I was still feeling sick and worn out, but I broke my fever so I think I am on the mend.  I am currently working on the curtain for
Denise's baby room.  I got about half done and then my sewing machine kept messing up so I quit for the time being I am hoping it will behave today and I can get them finished.  Well hope I can soon post one way or another on the job.

sick and sleeping

Well today was pretty much a blur, I was sick with a fever and all I did was get up to eat and then go back to bed, I did watch a little bit of tv.  Dave had the leftovers of the same thing I did, but felt so much better today.  I think I finally broke my fever.  So I am at this oddball hour still feeling tired but not enough to fall back asleep for now.  I watched a show about virus and pandemics it was very interesting.  To me it is amazing that such a small thing can cause so much trouble.  I was thinking about the 1918 flu, and how it directly affected family.  My Gma Hancox mom died of it and from that gma life took a dramaticly different turn than it might have.  I have always wondered if the introduction of these microsopic things such as bacteria, mold, and viruses are what the curse of sin was.  So much death and decay can be traced back to such a simple molecular thing.  I know this is rather a odd thing to blog about, but it has been something I have been mulling about in my mind.

I am hoping that they call one way or another about the job tommorow, if they dont call I will call in the afternoon.  However I think this could be a rather awkard thing.  Oh by the way you didnt call when you said you would and I would like to know about the job... how do you start that conversation. Ugh awkard to say the least.  I hate that money is so very very tight right now and I cant get started with Sorenson till I am fully trained in Feb.  I have started pursuing these job leads way back at the end of Sept. beggining of Nov.  Wow what a long time of pursuing stuff. 

Dave made a whole bunch of meals up for the week, it was such a wonderful sweet thing to do.  When I was awake I ate some green bean casserole and potatoes, watched a show went back to bed and slept and slept.  Well I really hope I did break my fever and this is behind me.

perturbed

Well I waited all day yesterday for a phone call about a job, and nada zip nothing all day.  I was and still am a little perturbed.  Whether or not I get the job, I should have got a courtsey call today.  That was just odd to leave me hanging like that.  At least you could call and say something, like there has been a delay or I am sorry, but no absolutely nothing. 

Today I go to a workshop and get some free CEUs.  I have the sniffles and am feeling pretty run down.  MLK called about 9 last night suffering from an anxiety attack, so I had Dad talk to her.  She has got to get over this hump, she sees the doctor again this week.  She didnt call again from her retreat so I suppose she is doing okay.  I am just in a funk today, hope I de funk myself and get in a better spirit.

random thoughts on the week

Well a bit of bad news, Travis Riddick was killed in Afghanastain yesterday.  This is Denises ex husbands twin.  He was just about ready to retire.  The details of how or why the copter came down has not been released yet.  The girls seem to be getting into the swing of things, except both of them forgot their lunches in the fridge yesterday.  So they were ravishingly hungry when they got home.  They are staying home, MDK has to work today and we are headed to Iowa.

I did well on the interview and will know by next Friday if I have the job or not.  I had to do some last minute faxing today for Sorenson cause the mail didnt get the paperwork to them when it should have.  So things are starting to shape up.  Will not worry too much about MERIL job till later. 

Going to Moms today and tommorow and then back home again, plan to get a few projects done this week.  MLK got a letter that VR has approved her so she may get some help with college and help finding a job.  Well better go for now I am going to try to lay down again and get some more sleep.

off to college and a second interview

So as I sit here the girls are getting around for their classes at college, they have packed their lunches, got their stuff around last night and we went over where everything is located on campus.  MDK works this evening so she is packing her work clothes.  I got a call yesterday for a second interview with MERIL I have no clue why but oh well here it goes it is on Friday.  Well better see the girls off on their first day.

a nervous mess

Yes I am a nervous mess this morning, waiting to hear about the job a yes or no or or or...  I did sleep pretty well due to Tylenol PM.  I did finish my quilt yesterday.  So very awesome!!!!!!!!  It was a long time in the works, let me tell ya!!  It was nice to sleep under it last night.  It should last a very long time.  I need to work on my photo stuff this week.  I need to pick up my house some also.  Well better get around including pics of my quilt.

waiting

While since it is Martin Luther King Day today, I will proably be waiting to find out about the MERIL job till tommorow.  I must tell you sleep seems to be eluding me.  Yesterday was a rough day at church, and a rough time for my girls and Dave.  Dave hadnt had any shakes at all for a month or two and yesterday afternoon he had them again.  The girls will do okay and so will Dave, but this will be a time of transition for our church.  I quess we just feel it a little deeper than most people cause we have been on both sides.  Dave went down and sorted his movies for the week and we cleaned house, well sorta I fell over a board that I was putting into the garage and fell.  So it was clean a little, rest a little, still quite sore this morning, just glad I didnt do any real damage.  Today hopefully I will work on my photography class and finish off my denim quilt, I finally got it all snipped must sew on the eyelet and then go to a big washing machine somewhere and wash it up.  We will see when it gets all done it has been a long time working on that quilt.  Need to get some ideas on MDK idea of what kind of quilt she wants for graduation.  Well more later

a day together at church

Today was a hard day at church our youth minister resigned today, there was alot of stuff going on which I dont know about.  I know that it was very hard on everyone, including my girls.  It has been a difficult for the girls to find their new nitch since we left Fairport and this is why I think it was harder for them then maybe it might have been.  MLK and MDK were both upset about it.  This is the reason I switched the weekends i needed to go help Mom.  MLK has been going off and on to Fairport.  I just know that her age is when you try to do your own thing and must find your own place in the world.  I hope everything goes well at church. 

worried about the kids

I quess all Moms worry about their kids, I quess there are just times when you worry more.  This would be one of those weekends, we have some stuff happening at our church that I think will upset our youngest.  Cant say much yet but will when I can.  It is hard to see your children have to deal with life and what it dishes out.  From the moment they are born you want to protect them from everything even though you know that is not realistic or right.  

MDK right now is going through the humps and bumps of having a job, her hours are all over the map and have been cut lately so she is going to talk to management.  She is very exicitied about starting college classes, and MLK took her in and got her car registered and her student id.  She was quite proud of that id.  She spent an hour on her hair for it.  That just makes me laugh.  She is trying to find out where she fits with so many places in her life right now.  The move to Clarksdale I think was the hardest on her.  However the start of classes and enrichment classes will be good for her and she has been making some good decisions about friends of late.  She is good friends with one of her co workers but the others she is keeping as aquiantances, they dont share her values and she is learning the difference between friendly and best buds.  This is hard for the social butterfly who wants to be liked by everyone.

MLK is struggling right now and is waiting anxiously for classes to start.  She is very depressed with her job search and she was started on a new medicine around Christmas time that she is still acculumating to.  She wants us to direct her life and then she doesnt, we have both stepped back alot and she feels alot of aniexity about the future.  I think the biggest thing for her is that she is still unsure about the future.  I think if she gets a strong idea of where she wants to head she will be like a dog with a bone.  However that has not happened.  She keeps having interviews but no one hires her.  I think she is doing well at her interviews, it is that she doesnt have much work history.  So still praying for her that she doesnt give up the hope for a job and keeps after it.  We are really letting her feel that pinch of I am broke and I cant do much because I am broke.  That can motaviate a young adult like no other. 

holding my breath

Well here we go,  changes are on the way but not as fast as I would like them.  I have had very few jobs once again, and this make for tightness, esp. after personal property tax and such.  We can get by but it makes it tight.  We are blessed however and that is what I need to focus on.  God says he will take care of us and that is what we need to focus on.  I will know about the MERIL job on Monday or Tuesday.  So I am a little anxious about that.  Sorenson starts up right around the corner.  Wow what a ride this will be. 

Thinking about memories and trying to record some thoughts of yesteryear.  Well when MLK was a little baby we were barely getting by.  I was off on maternity leave at McDonalds we had just finished paying 200 dollars health insurance premiums.  We had a house provided by the church but we paid all the electric bills, water etc.  I remember that we would pray for damaged or torn packaged diapers  at the Food 4 Less every week and lo and behold there would be greatly reduced diapers due to packaging being messed up.  I also was on a testing panel for baby products and got alot of free products.  However these were sweet times when we marveled at the simple needs God was taken care of for us.  I do remember one month however when it was so tight that I threw all the bills in the air and the first two that landed got paid and the rest got a phone call till I could catch up with them.  Looking back I laugh at myself and think what a way to do that. Also our house had character we would watch the one channel we got and see if would rain and then we would put our pots and pans out, they never reroofed the house while we were there they would just tar it it would last four to six months and then it would leak again. We found out after we moved we were lucky the furnace didnt blow it was in bad shape.  We were glad for the Fairport crew that always took care of their property.  At Hopkins we also had the rock and roll toliet and the hole in from of the bathtub, six months before we left they finally fixed the bathroom.  Again it was good to have a very reliable house in Fairport.  Well better go for now.

a new journey

I am an offical hire at Sorenson Video Relay and I will be starting as a new hire on Feb 1st.  I will be hearing back from MERIL next Monday or Tuesday.  Life is going to change some.  I am exicited and nervous about it all.  Today I am trying to get MDK all finished up before I head out of town.  Well better get around for today.

my baby goes to college

So today I sign MDK up for college classes, she will be doing English 100 and Sociology.  She was going to take a government class but the textbook was as much as the class was going to cost so we might do that at a later date.  We went and talked to Mike Ritter, disability coordinator at the college.  MDK will have a note taker for classes to help her out with her dysgraphia.   After I sign up her and get her books purchased then I will be going down to Sorenson for some training and such.  My interview went well on Monday and I should know next Monday or Tuesday if I get the job or not.

Found free audio book downloads on the internet, mostly all classics but I do like the classics so that is not a bad thing.  MDK finished up her writing for the year and her Bible doctrines for high school.  Next she is getting Science out of the way.  We are trying to put on subject away at a time.  MLK went and got her books for college, been struggling with an ovarian cyst, yet again.  She may have to see the doctor if they start becoming a regualar occurence.

Well all for now.

a ripe tomato

We have a red ripe tomato in our mud room, it is so awesome to have actually grown one, it is small but it is bright red, Dave is going to eat it soon.  I dont know if the others will get big enough or even turn red but it has been fun to try.  Next year I plan to have ones that are much more likely to grow well inside. 

I did very well on my interview and will find out about it next week.  I have enrichment class sign ups and college sign ups soon and must go down to sorenson wed. afternoon.  I am hoping that all these changes will work out. 

So a memory I have is gardening growing up.  I remember sitting on buckets and picking strawberries, eating about every third one.  Mom told us to clean them before we ate them so i spit on them and wiped them on my shirt, fine back then but I  having to rethink that method as I type this.  I remember picking apples and peeling and peeling and peeling.  I remember digging potatoes, I hated this cause I was always afriad of getting the mushy rotten one.    Green beans I thought would never keep producing, after picking them for the third time I would suggest to them that now would be a good time to die and wither in the sun.  I remember eating peas straight out of the garden.  Rhubarb cake that Mom would make.  Picking grapes and the good grape juice.  Going rasberry picking in the woods, and finding some sort of nut one time deep in the woods, maybe it was hazel nuts I just know it wasnt walnuts.  Also climbing mulberry trees and eating them and staining my clothes, my face and my hands.  That was fun, though I think Mom didnt have as much fun trying to get me destained.  And Gma Hancox garden was full of all sorts of things also, I remember the gooseberry bushes and her glads, rows and rows of glads.  Corn on the cob from the garden, frozen corn. However there was the corn in the pickup that I said was overipe, and Dad said different so I got it ready to freeze and Mom came home and said this is all too overripe. Getting pears off the pear tree down by the mailbox, mostly just grabbing a few for the walks we would take, green and crispy were the best. 

Well that is all for now, best be getting around for the day

mom is doing better

I was up to mom's over the weekend and she is really doing well.  I think she is a tad frustrated with the slow and steady process of healing but she is really doing well. I do understand the frustration that comes with not being able to do what you want to do right now.  Healing always takes time.  I watched an online video with Gabby Gifford the senator that got shot. It is amazing how far she has come. 

I am up early quess it might be a little bit of nerves, however overall I am just not extremely worried about it.  I just know God has a design for the future and we will just see how it goes.  I just want to do a good job and then leave the rest up to His guiding.  This will be a busy week, so it was nice to come home get into pjs and hold hands with my hubby and watch some mindless tv together.  Simple pleasures are the best.

whatever I ate last night

Wow some really bizzare dreams last night, I had two very vivid dreams the first one was MDK and she was driving down a mountain road eating a sandwich, but the wierd thing was she was driving with her feet, she had the steering wheel between her two toes on either side of the wheel and she got pulled over for wreckless driving in my dream.  The next dream was Dave was pregnant and being prepped for a c-section, whatever I ate I should not do that again before bed.

I wont be going home until tommorow and then coming back on Sunday afternoon, maybe today I will get my Christmas stuff down and I hope to make a quick trail run down to Sorenson so I know the way.  I am officially hired there and will start training the first week Feb.  So I at least know that is in the bag. 

So sharing another memory, my paino.  The paino I played for years came out of Grandma Seams house, it was in bad shape and Mom and Dad fixed it up. I took five years of panio lessons and I would say I got to be an intermediate player,  I knew somewhere in high school that I was never going to be gifted at it, I wasnt a natural, you know one of those that have the natural raw flare for a thing.  However the panio gave me hours of enjoyment and was a great outlet for me.  I remember playing for youth group, once in a while for church (only songs I picked that I could play).  I remember a magazine I got for a half a year that talked about music and composers and such. I loved a book that I checked out of the library that had all sorts of american classics such as moon river, theme from romeo and juliet.  Also enjoyed learning to play The Holy City, it was a challanging piece.  That paino was moved to my first home and then when we moved I donated it to our church.  It was so heavy and awkard to move I was pregnant and expecting MLK and I knew that I wouldnt have the time to play and if I did I could go to our church.  I now have a panio again, it came with this house, it needs tuned badly plan to get that done this year.  I think that my base knowledge of panio has encourage me to try new things in music.  I still would like to get back to having a trumpet again and would like to try dulicemer (appalician type musical instrument).  So yes all those panio lessons and practice were not wasted, they are a enjoyable memory of my past and part of who I am today.

today

Well today... what will I do today, I dont have something I have to do today.  What I hope to accomplish today, well that is the question.  I must get my haircut!!! I have gone past that stage of decent okay into oh my goodness why did I let it go this long!  It has wings and I hate that when my hair does that.  So haircut is at the top of my list.  Clean the house, work on my photography class, and then from there I dont know.  MDK has some schoolwork I need to supervise, MLK and I are trying to nail down her finicial aid and college stuff, does it really have to be this hard, I mean really.  They seem to be the best vague answer people around. 

I have had urge to make a sock monkey this year, so I will be making one before the end of the year.  Hope to finish off all my projects from last year and do some more afghans this year.

Well I think I am going to go back to bed and try to sleep just a little more.

feeling nervous

Woke up this morning feeling really nervous, I quess try as I may change as I age just gets to me.  I am nervous about getting a new job or not getting it, and just so many other things that come with a major life shift.  Will I say something stupid or will I look confindent and well done.  You just never know what will be. 

Today I will be going to a funeral, hopefully getting my haircut and getting a urinaylasis for Sorenson done.  Well here for jumping into the fray.

mom's surgery and a new year

Well Mom got through surgery for her knee okay and is on the way to recovery, had a lot of pain when she came out and Dad said they finally got her pain down.  I am glad she went through with it and hope she has the courage to get the other one done also.  Missed MDK since I havent seen her since Friday, she should be getting off work before too much longer!  We are all super tired due to getting up soooo early for the surgery. 

A new year brings with a new direction with work I am thinking.  I plan to also start recording memories of yesteryear at least once a week.  So here goes nothing....

I remember our dogs while growing up.  The first dog I remember was Lady, she was a beagle, she lived with us when we were up living close to Ames, I remember coming home and playing with her after kindergarten.  She followed me around alot outside and when I played on my swingset, she sat and watched me.  Then when we moved to Seymour, we had Ginger, she was a sweet even tempered dog, was very protective of the place and was a good dog.  However the all time favorite was Tuffy her son, he had quite the personality and he insisted on everyone liking him.  He would just talk and talk to you.  He lived a long time way after I moved out of the house.  We also had one cat I remember that had alot of personality and he was a tabby named Alexander, also had a black cat when I was little that I think I dressed up and tortured alot. 

Well better get something done with the rest of my day so that is all for now.