MLK has mono

Well MLK got her results back, no thyroid troubles, but she has mono, so that is why she has been so tired and so sick.  There is nothing she can do about it but let it run it's course.  She finallly had a break through moment yesterday when she had to pay yet another twenty dollar fee to college to get her transcript released.  She now has about fifty dollars to her name.  She broke down in tears and I told her I had hoped she finally "came to herself" and realized that now is a good time for a job.  So she did a whole lot of online applications last night. Today she goes back in and turns them in and then if nothing turns up this weekend she will apply to fast food.

Yesterday MDK got some things set up for Guatelema next year, and then did a bunch of school work and then went to work.  Dave and I putzed around the house and just enjoyed the down time, and then he had a marriage counseling.  Today we are putting up Christmas decorations and such.  Well better go for now.

Thanksgiving, vacation and tomatoes

Well thanksgiving is officially done as of yesterday at lunch.  We had a great time at my Moms catching up with everyone and just chilling.  Then we meet up with the Sagers which was a very good time to catch up on everything, we then hurried home and got ready for the meal with Dave's Dad side of the family.  Then yesterday they were back to help eat up leftovers before they left for home.  I got a short nap in yesterday untill the neighbor next door started working on a very loud car. 

Dave is on vacation this week and we are uncertain what we will be doing this week, which is proably good, we will go meet Micah today if at all possible. MDK will be setting up stuff for the Guatelmela trip this next year.  Other than that no big plans other than my test on Thursday. 

The tomatoes have alot of blooms and one little green tomato, need to stake them this week and then fertilize them so they will produce, have been shaking them so they will self poolinate.  Well better go for now.

Vacation

Well Dave and I are offically on vacation but we are having a staycation.  We did go to Moms for Thanksgiving day, what beautiful weather, we took a walk and sat on the porch and talked till the wind started up.  Bren had a spot removed from her face and was feeling a little rough.  We had a good time talking to everyone and then yesterday we meet up with the Sagers that was awesome.  It was so much fun to catch up with them.  I am thinking we should go see them one of these years.  Today Dave's Dad will be coming and the gang so will have thanksgiving here.  Then Monday we have a meeting with Micah setting up stuff for MDK for Guatemela next year.  We are going to maybe swim sometime put up the tree, who knows what else.  He wants to redo MDK room I do not however.  I told him I dont do wallpaper, removing or putting up.  This Thursday I have my sign language test, ugh. that is all I have to say.  Well I had better get around and make the pies.

sometimes you are mad and you just dont know why

I was mad yesterday and grumpy, when you do or try to help someone out and it gets thrown back in your face you tend to get grumpy.  I have mad days, I let a few things simmer just a bunch of little things really and you dont work through them and then they just all together make you mad.  My family says Mom is in a funk.  I am not at all happy when this happens and it shows and I do exactly what I want and everything else just goes by the wayside.  If I want to sew I do that if I want to do nothing I do that, if I want to do whatever I do that.  I have a selfish day or two.  I remember once I got mad in Fairport because no one was helping out without a production and whine, so I quit.  So for two weeks I didnt do dishes, laundry, sweeping, moping, nothing after two weeks the kids said please mom we will help out with whatever you need.  I made them beg for a few days and then I got up and went about it. 

So I finished sewing one of my projects for a Christmas hanging, have some more Christmas things I am planning on doing. I also finished reading a book I have had for a few weeks.  I brought the tomatoes in to the mud room.  I have alot to do around the house just havent decided if I plan to do them or not.

jumping through hoops

What a day, MLK had to do a bunch of stuff this afternoon since her car was in the shop.  Took it to D-tone.  One of her tires had broken the steel belt inside the tire and that was causing the trouble and so she paid for one tire and I paid for the other front tire (so she owes me 112 dollars).  She then had to go to the liscense place and the hoops we did there.  Because of the permit junk when she was in MO.  We had to fill out forms that she had driven for 40 hours with a liscensed person the lady called Jeff City three times we sat for and hour and a half and had to get Dave's Dad liscense number for proof, she finally got her liscense transferred.  So now she can do all her other stuff, luckly she got to register to vote while she was there.  She also picked up a whole bunch of applications while we were out.  So basically yesterday was taxi day, but she is now back in her vehicle which is a good thing. 

Today I have two jobs.  I am really wanting to sew on stuff but just been busy getting a bunch of stuff out of the way.  Been doing alot of extra laundry, washing stuff I do ocassionally such as curtins, extra bedding, etc.  I made pear butter (like apple butter) , the neighbor gave me some pears.  Well busy day today so more later.

exicitied

Well MLK moves home today, so I am exicitied and we also got the room done and it looks fantastic.  Dave wants me to wait till she sees it before I put up the pictures of it on the web.  I suspect MLK has changed alot, she moved out for six months total.  I know she already has a different perspective on quite a few things. 

MDK and I had one of those days yesterday.  It was a tad frustrating, she is a very capable child but sometimes she chooses not to be consistant with her quality of work.  I think that is the last great frontier with her.  I can understand an off day or two but a week, really.  Needless to say we were both grumpy at each other yesterday. 

Got my house clean, got MDK stuff done yesterday, did a ton of laundry, am baking down pears in the crockpot to make pear butter jam, working on an afghan.  Well better get off here for now.

mental health

Okay this will be a soap box posting.  A disclaimer also this is not about my daughter at all because she has been doing a great job controling her bipolar.

Mental health issues, this is something I have dealt with all my life since I was 21.  I have had my ups and downs but overall I have done well and stayed on meds, and adjusted meds throughout my life.  I maintain it, it dosent maintain me.  So I have no symptom for people who dont stay on top of their own issues.  My daughter can tell you that for sure.  She usually gets a good talkin to if she doesnt call the doctor if things need to be adjusted, etc.  I get very upset with people who fall victim to their mental health, we all will have struggles, but not everyone around you needs to be punished and such because you wont take care of your well being.  I know that it is hard, that you feel horrible, that you cant go on, I get it.  However no one would feel sorry for a diabetic who doesnt take his insulin and doesnt check his blood sugar right?  Once in a huge while I know I have a day that I just have to recollect and I will do that.  I just retreat for the day regather my thoughts an then plunge forward.  I have been in the pits with my depression, and I have had it where I have had some pretty severe symptoms but I go to the doctor and I get my meds adjusted, switched whatever it takes.  Mental health issues just dont affect the person, they affect families and realtionships and such.  So anyway enough for now.  I will try to go back to bed and get some more sleep. 

katie is now a spenser

Well obviously I cant seem to fiqure out sex on kittens, Katie went to get spade and got nuetered instead.  Oh well, we always get all our animals spade or nuetured, but now we renamed him to Spenser.  The tomatoes are growing by leaps and bounds lots of blooms, keeping out there for one more week with the forecast then proably bring them in.  We got the second coat of paint on, pulled out the carpet and the pad, and burned them last night.  So today is touch ups and tacks and clean up and put it all back together again.  The wood floor is goregous.  MLK is feeling some better and has pretty much packed her car and is finishing all her test, papers, projects and such.  If everything goes right she will be home on Tuesday.  MDK has the whole weekend off woo hoo for her.  Dave has a busy week coming up, he has had less nerve pain this week so that is good.  New funky thing is hearing, it comes it goes in his left ear, has happened twice this week not for long periods maybe an hour or two.  Well all for now, more later.

life changes

I sometimes sit and contemplate life changes, and I am sitting at a stage of life where I can actually see the change around the corner.  It just feels wierd, I remember back when I was dating and thinking what was married life to be like and had all these thoughts about it.  You know those thought of day in day out wedded bliss (I love love my hubby, but really bliss, we are human after all).  Then my first pregnancy and the thoughts of a child and then thoughts of a second and then how I was going to be the mom that does everything right and keeps a clean house (yeah right).  I litterally remember sitting down in the middle of my living room and crying (missy about 3 and meg a year) and making a decision that I really physically could not do it all and that a clean house was good but not alway obtainable.  Then the dread of teens on the horizon, and all the drama (I must say this stage is why you get gray hair).  Now I stare down the next stage where I am not a big player in the girls life and that it goes back to Dave and I and growing older and maybe hopefully in the future grandkids.  I am looking at career changes, health issues for Dave, and time for hobby and friends again.  What will this next stage hold, how will I adjust to it, will I feel lost, how will Dave and I change in our relationship with our girls gone, how do I develop close friendships with more people now that I have the time.  What do I(yes, just me) want to do for fun.  Interesting I must say, will have to get back to you on that.

good time with MDK

Yesterday was just one of those moments that you have with your kids, when things click and you are in what I call the "zone".  It is such a neat and special moment.  We really werent doing anything special just normal stuff but it just all felt right.  We started the day off doing school stuff, sitting in the reclainers next to each other and then we went out for lunch (her treating me), and picked up supplies, took her to her work due to her car troubles and then we had choir performance/soup kitchen and then a Mary Kay party.  It wasnt about what we were doing it was just the hanging and talking.  I had the same type of day with MLK about a month ago in Iowa.  Those are nice times that you just really love.

redoing rooms

Well yesterday we got started on MLK's room makeover, it has been the room we have been waiting for to do since we moved in, it was the only carpeted room that we needed to do something with cause it was in bad shape.  It has beautiful wood floor underneath it so I am looking forward to that also.  So we asked her for some ideas and we mixed our own in, mostly because it is not always going to be her room.  It will be part quest and part craft room at a later date.  Proably have a sleeper sofa or daybed or something like that and then all my yarns, sewing machine, etc in there after MLK moves out for good. So she said how about a wine or plum color, so we got burnt plum and a lighter complentary shade and we started on it yesterday.  We got all the dirt and grime off and then got mostly all the first coat done.  So today we will hopefully get a second coat on and maybe even get it all done.  I have a much dreaded slatted door and we took the doors off her closet and plan to do a curtin there as the doors get messed up by her bedroom dinging into them.  It will brighten it up in there as the blue was just too close to the white paneling.  So when we get done we will get you a picture posted.

truman library and a quiet day for school

Went to the Truman Library on Monday with my folks had a good time had been once before but it was nice to see it again.  We had a good visit.  Today I dont have a job and MDK doesnt go in until 3 so hoping to get a lot of loose ends tied up.  We do get a chunk of work done everyday, I quess I would compare to cleaning, you go through your house maintaining a certain level of cleanliness and then you have days where you deep clean and get all the nitty gritty done.  So hoping today is that kind of day where we polish off stuff.  She is doing well about keeping a good balance between work and school and also we plan to keep it going right through summer.  We have had breakfast and she took a shower and now she is starting with Bible Doctrines, she is on her last big book for Bible for high school.  We have used through the Bible curriculum all three of them for the girls, give them a great foundation of Biblical knowledge.  The she is working on Marine Biology.  She will have four sciences when she completes high school.  She has civics for government/history this year it is a half credit since she is not going to Teen Pact.  The we are doing intense on the grammer/writing, this is very indvidualized to her needs the one last and final area of struggle for her, she just took a great leap forward though.  For her it seems like she hits a wall and hits a wall and then there is a break through moment and she finds that next level.  It is rewarding for her when she finally suceeds, she has a way to go and proably will do good to take an English 100 course in college so that it is a little easier for her, but I think she could go into English 104 however I think it would be very challanging for her, we will see how she does on the ACT and that will determine it for her.  She is enjoying Farenheit 451(a book I love), I wasnt sure she would enjoy it.  We are doing a study with it on similies and metaphors and she had to come up with her own.  Similies are easy, metaphors not so much. Next up will proably be Uncle Tom's Cabin.  We do poetry between books for a week or so, we just read The Walrus and the Carpenter, The Highwayman, and one by Edgar Allan Poe and some other favorites.  She is doing Algebra 2 and so am I.  We do it with a CD that teaches the lesson and then she and I do the problems together we work them seperately and then compare answers and then check them and then we have the honors of yelling schooled ya at the other one when we get the right answers.  MDK is good at Math so a chunk of the time I am the one getting schooled.  She had a good chess tourney, she won two and lost three and came in seventh so not great but not bad either.  She has Bible quiz this Saturday.  Well better get off of here.