how embrassing

my girls were total terds in front of their grandmother. Hopefully today is a better day. I had a rough day and long day yesterday.

Interpreted in the morning, then went to the library for MDK, then picked up a few groceries, meds, and then got the dogs went to the vet which took forever, and then home (it is 4) and did homework with girls, that got done at 8, started packing for Teen Pact and today which should have taken very little time, and then the craziness was at its extreme. MLK wanted to pack clothes that didnt fit, were dirty, whatever she thought and she wanted to do it herself. For an overnight, yeah fine, but she will be gone a week! She makes me crazy, it was because her room was a total mess when you dug into it. So we got into it, mostly me nagging about everyone has a judgement day, and her telling me I am a control freak, and grandma is laughing the whole time. She remembers the days that me and my sister (mainly my sis :) drove her to the edge also. MDK is upset because MLK is doing a series of things that she is not involved in.

Today we go to Tan Tara hope it is a nicer time than last night, MLK is in a mood and if she continues we may turn around half way and come home, hopefully she is a nicer person this morning.

Gotta go

I love to blog

Blogging is my friend, I have always thought it was neat how in times past people kept diaries and that is how we have so many details in history. I love to be able to just put random thoughts into the blog and that helps do some tidying up of the brain. Yesterday about wiped out my brain, five hours of homeschooling ontop of 7 hours of interpreting, that makes my brain hurt. Today I interp. at the college, take dog to vet, and finish up some subjects. Mom will be over mid afternoon. Tommorow we head out to Tan-tara. Exicitied about that. Plan to pack MLK for Teen Pact as she will go with S. sunday night overnight and then we won't see her till Friday of the following week. I have to pick up her meds also!!! So many little things makes you crazy at times.

Dave has one guy in his church that is just a terd, Dave was hopping mad at him last night, we took a short car ride just to calm him down. L. justs takes every oppurtunity to act like a jerk and show his fanny! Really wish I could be home today but off to work, (it isnt that long) I just want to sit around in my pjs! Well better get off here and shower.

a long but fruitful day

I did school from morning to night. Went and interpreted 7 hours at a school and then I came home and did 5 hours of school. However it was fruitful. Maggie the dog has a urine infection so hopefully get her into the vet tommorow. One more day of terping and then off to Tan Tara. Hopefully it will be loads of fun. Well better get some sleep.

I got mad

Yesterday at the prison I got hopping mad at the inmate I was interpreting for, I have not gotten angry ever on an interpreting assignment, it pissed me off that he thought I was incompentant and then he played what I call the Deaf card. Because we dont agree then you are discrimanting agaisnt me BS stuff.

So anyway, yesterday was not a great day as the girls and Dad got into due to them ignoring him. Church went well however but we were down in numbers.

Feeling a little behind in everything a little overwhelmed by the list I have created for myself well today is a new day and I must grab it and go.

Off to the showers.

not a dry eye

We had a small group for our Sweetheart banquet, but the movie Fireproof really moved people it was sooo good, and everyone loved it!!! Today is a rather busy day and Dave has to finish off his route late tonight due to the server being down on Friday, so we will be out late doing that. I took a big old nap yesterday, wasn't feeling too perky.

This week has alot of interpreting to do and then we go to Tan-Tara, it will be good to intepret alot so that we can pay off our taxes due. Well better get around and get to church!

weighing in

See the dietian again today, it hasn't been long but this is the first visit after the intial one. Then going to get my hair cut, and come home and school school school, then a youth activity. We are having some difficulties with our youth minister. It is just a huge sticky wicket for Dave, I wish he would just bow out gracefully. I have held my tongue over and over again, and if I have you can imange the church folks who are not as tolerant. My biggest fear is it biting Dave in the butt.

Looking into choir and mission trips for the summer for the girls, workshops for me, MLK ACT is coming up in April, need to get basic skills for MDK, the homeschool group may do that not firmed up on that yet. It is alot to conquer, have an absolute crazy schedule in March for interpret but that will pay taxes. Then more debt (hospital from MLK) then van fund. It never ends, but we are in such a better place.

Had a rough night with MLK last night, she had forgotten her meds, so she took them and went to bed early hope it is better today, as we have alot to do.

Well showering I must blogging I must leave.

death and taxes

Well got the intial bill for taxes. Wow, we saved alot for taxes but blew it out of the water. Luckily I have jobs galore for the next 6 weeks. Actually we could pay almost all of it now, but we would have 0 dollars to our name. We will proably need to start paying them quarterly. I quess we will do that this summer. We will then start saving for a van. Our purple car is very close to 200,000 miles and will need to be replaced so we plan to buy a van for around 4-5 thousand hopefully sometime this summer it maybe fall after taxes are paid. Decided on a van to replace purple car as the girls miss it alot!

Have a job this morning and then doing a sign language skills study group for testing this afternoon. I have so many personal goals right now, it is not funny, working on the weight issue and gearing up for surgery this summer, researching and developing a business plan for a photography business, and taking my interpreter test again possibly summer or fall.

I am feeling much better about life of late, it seems like MLK is finally in a good spot, she will have her moments (what sixteen year old doesn't), but the counselor is down to once a month and the doctor just wants to see her every other month. I told her how proud I was that she was taking control of her condition, instead of it taking control of her. We had a long conversation last night as she had acted like a terd in front of one of our church members (he is the tax guy and the dad of her friend). I told her at sixteen, people dont make judgements about me as a parent but as you as a person, and what does he think of you, because you are of an age where you stand on your own merits in people's mind. It was an eyeopener for her, she had never thought of it that way. We talked long and hard about growing up, she says it is scary, I said yes but also rewarding. I think this is the bird I must push from the nest to get to fly, and the pushing has begun. Now MDK is the bird that will jump and then realize she needs to fly, how much they differ.

Dave is such a wonderful husband and I am so lucky to be his wife, he works so hard for our family.

Well more later.

vacation pictures

back to the cold

Wow, after being in the hot sunny climate this wind and cold is worse I think. However I so enjoyed that. Yesterday I did a million little errands, I went and got the dogs, turned in the van, got the groceries, then I took a short nap, got the truck inspected, ran to Walmart, had girls over and then went to bed. Just a mish mash of things, now I interpret today and have enrichment classes and then MLK has her appt with her counselor.

I am doing a lot of research right now in starting a small business, one that would cover both photographing and interpreting so I am in the research phase of this. I bought one Business for Dummies book so that will help and I will work from there. Also need to get my curriculm done for my classes as that will be coming right up.

Dave, I and the girls worked on the house so it is in pretty good shape. Watched a little Star Trek before turning in. Well talk more later.

what a wonderful time

I will post our pictures when Dave is up and around, he is sleeping in on this last day of vacation. He is going to show me how to downsize them so they upload easier.

We had a blast, only a few grumpy moments in the van, and I cried when going through downtown Dallas (missed an exit), don't do good with traffic it stresses me out way too much. Other than that what fun, three days of 80 plus, sand, tropical trees, and sun.

First day there we picked oranges off their trees, and then we went to Padre Island, drove up and down the beach, collect hundreds of shells, waded in the ocean, played in the sand dunes, sat and listened to the ocean, took pictures, feed sea gulls. MDK ran from them as she had seen the movie The Birds by Alfred Hitchcock, MLK had them literally eating from her hand. We shopped for a half hour, saw a lighthouse and came home.

Thursday we just swam, talked, and saw a hand drawn ferry over the Rio Grande, mostly a lazy day, shopped a little.

Friday we went to Mexico, that was interesting, had fun haggling over the price, ate at a Mexican restuarant across the border, went through border patrol to get back in (sweated a little with my birth certificate written in Spanish). Came home swam again, sat in the hot tub, played a dice game and then rested up for the trip home. Girls drove around in the golf cart and biked alot.

It was nice weather the whole time. Glad to be home somewhat, this will prove to be a busy week like usual. However a vacation in the dead of winter is truely good. Well gotta go pick up the dogs and return the van. bye for now.

bible quiz, folding clothes, finishing off and game night

Well today and tommorow and off on vacation. Yesterday we didn't get as much done around the house as I had liked. MDK got all her school work finished, and MLK I think is almost done. She had alot of Teen Pact stuff to do, as she will have two weeks and off again she will go. Also the trip to Tan-Tara in there too.

We have Bible quizzing followed by Game night tonight at the church, Dave is sleeping in and then finishing church stuff today. I don't know when everything around the house or the packing will get done maybe we will have a late start on Monday. I knew at the beggining of the week trying to get it all done could be quite the challange. WEll better get around.

getting it all done

Well today hopefully we finish all the schoolwork, MDK and I worked on it after my work till about 9 when both of our brains were dead. However we finished off her math. Slope intercept, scientific notation oh what fun, with her it is really quite easy, however last night I realized that we must go all the way back and review decimals, she keeps messing them up. How odd!

MLK got her room done last night just has to Bissel it today, we have lots of little ends to finish up today. Got all the interpreting done for the week. Taking the cats in to get fixed today, so off to Savanaah first thing this morning. The laundry is close to be all done, Dave only has a few loose Redbox things to tie up. Well better go and get around

worked hard yesterday, tying up all the loose ends

Trying to get ready for vacation is hard work at times, you have like 22 little things to mark off your list. It is an amazing amount of work to do. Anyway, MLK and I worked hard yesterday to get alot of the Teen Pact done, when we get home we have two weeks and then she heads off to Teen Pact. She will be gone for the first week of March. We also have a trip to Tan Tara the weekend before she leaves so we will have alot to do. Today's goals are to try to get most of the schoolwork done, last day interpreting and get bedrooms cleaned up (white glove inspection type). Today they film me while I am interpreting (not my gig so much) but they need a promotional video and wanted to show disablity services at the college (ala me). Yesterday I went and left in 10 minutes and they paid me, they had lockdown so couldnt get in and charge due to no cancellation. Been trying to work due to taxes being due, hopefully the hit isn't too big.

Well best get around and get ready for my day.

i didn't win

Well I didnt win with my picture, but I got some good evaluation scores, just didnt win any certain place, had some good competation though. MLK had a good day at enrichment classes and we had a nice time together today. I ended up standing in for the other interpreter for the art class, the next time I do that class I will actually be videotaped for a promotional video for the college. MDK stayed home as she had pucked most of last night, she slept almost all day long. She is acting a little better tonight. She is keeping stuff down. MLK is having the runs tonight so we are still plaqued with the flu. I have however seemed to get over my cold, so that is good. We have school work to accomplish, 1/2 basement, bible quiz meet, two youth activities, laundry a few more days of interpreting, Sunday services, redbox route, bedroom cleaning then off to vacation. Can you tell I have vacation on the brain. Well better get off and get to bed.

back to enrichment classes

Well we start enrichment classes again today, however MDK will not go due to being sick. We are offically in the countdown to Texas days. We cleaned like mad people yesterday and now all we have left is half the basement and the bedrooms, some laundry. Then we are working on all the assignments to be finished this week before we go. I interpret today, tommorow and Thursday. We also cleaned up trash out of the ditch, the yard and the garage yesterday.

Found a place to kennel the dogs for the week, so will be getting that arranged, today I rent the van, got the money cashed for our fund. When we get back we will start saving for a van, as we are going to need a new bit of transportation, then we will finish paying off the hospital bills (we pas y some each monrh on them.

Sarah called and asked how much interpreting I wanted, but I took some and told her to give it away and come back to me to help fill out spots, mostly because I need to be able to homeschool and help Dave out as needed, if I interpret all the time (which I could) those things would not get done.

Well better get around for today, will see how my photo does this evening.

drumroll please

Drumroll please . . . MLK won a honorable metion with her poem, YEAH, out of 193 she was in the Top 30, her poem will not go one to the nationals, but she is going to a awards conference at the end of the month in Lake of the Ozarks. So here is the poem, sorry but until the contest was decided it couldn't be published . MLK says it is about her bi polar and how she feels at times.

Incoherency
by Melissa Kaster
Tendrils of memory swirl just beyond my reach
On the edge of sleep still teetering
Dips into blue and then soaring high on white
So out of touch, insubstantial
This eerie world where sleep won’t come
Where consciousness eludes
Not quite joy these feelings
But sorrow is well known
Never quite happy always tainted blue
White sears judgment beyond repair
Drifting in and out
Lethargy pins me down
Though I cannot quell this urge
To scream, am I really alive?
Rays of copper crimson and gold stream down
Saccharine melody rise as a symphony begins
Dew gathers on leaves I’m sure
I sigh, I stretch, the day is here

frustrated

Well this is my one place to just pour frustrations, for those who read this just skip down to a different post. I have found this blog to be extremly therapuetic for myself. Got started on the road to biartic surgery, did not like having to weigh in, extremely emotional and hard, and did the physical therapist, and the pysch evaluation. With the pysch evaluation, I realized I don't have alot of close friends that are not family members. I just quess I don't feel like I can trust people not to burn me. I think alot of pastor's wifes feel that way, we opened our hearts before and got really burned. Also when would I have time? I think however I have alot of aquaintances that fill up my life and I get support from them. I also feel that once the girls are gone I will have more time to pursue adult friendships.

My house is driving me mad, I want it clean before vacation, this flu bug wiped out the one good day I had to do it. I just don't know what to do with it. It is not bad bad, just never stays clean for more than an hour. I think I will need to go on a decluttering rampage. I just get so frustrated with it.

I also get frustrated with my girls, they are so teenagerish, really they are good girls, but my priotrities and theirs are very different. They want to do the bare necessities I want a job well done, therin lies conflict at every turn.

I don't think I have anything to complain about at the church, yet.

Okay feeling a little better, Dave says you are a pleasant person, untill you are sick and then watch out. Rereading this blog, I quess he is right!

puke and sleep and grump

Well the best laid plans of mice and men . . . today I was to catch up on the million little things. NOT! It didn't happen, I woke up with my stomach just a churning, oh well it will settle down, NOT! So around 9 am I am hanging over the stoll must have thrown up 10 times in a row, popped little blood vessels in my face so now I am speckled, Dave showed me the bed and I crawled into it. Then I got up in an hour or two and ate a grilled cheese sandwich and back to bed I went as it felt it was going to come up also. Slept till 4 this afternoon, then laid in the reclainer everytime I got up I got nausueted, but finally around 7 tonight it got some better. Right now I am up due to the fact I had a coughing fit and got something to drink to settle it down. I was a grump today, mostly because of not getting to get the stuff done today. Well there is always tommorow, right, well try to get more sleep.