Thanksgiving

We are home, they had her come home and will be making an appt. with the pain clinic, she was very upset as they suggested it could be pyschoschemtic. I truely don't believe this, however the other doctor said that it was a possible nerve that has been irriated or a torn muscle. She was sent home with a nerve blocker med. So we go back in a week or so to get a full evaluation and a way to control pain that won't get her addicted to meds or have other ill effects.

I still have a bit of the runs today, MLK is hurting so we are at home, Dave is going to work on his machines today, and I will work on the house.

I am having a hard time staying optomistic this year, it has been a long hard year, with lots of fears, bumps, and setbacks. However God gives us strenth enough for the next day. I have always been a somewhat optomisitc person, and I used to blog about neat and fun things. However this blog seems to be somewhat grippy and negative now. However it has been a great coping tool for me. Getting all the ick out is very healing to my soul.

I am wishing for a magic wand to wave over things and poof it would be all better. However lets get real, we have a road to continue to travel that is going to be a little rough yet. I had better get off and finish my chores for today.

Feeling a little stressed out

Well MLK and I are here at Children's Mercy, they are trying to discover what is going out with the pain, they have ruled out anything gynlogical. So we await to see the doctor's this morning to find out what they do next. She is just physically and mentally worn out from this pain.

I am mentally worn out from this year, one to many hospitals for my liking this year. I woke up with the runs this morning, and I just know it was the stress of all of this. Being here last night, was like having a wave crash over you from last March. I was somewhat teary last night, however I am better this morning that way.

They have a wonderful parent's room here that I am enjoying, when she is asleep or watching a show I can slip out and come down here and just chill. Well better get back to the room.

what a week

Wow what a week, the creeping crude puke from your toes has hit the household, I had to drag Dave all around his route to finish it off, he was so not good. He would sleep from one place to the next, I would then wake him up and we would do the machine and then he would pass out again. He just ate some mashed potatoes and hoping to keep them down. We have some anti nasuea meds so MLK took them as she got sick. She didnt puke as long, but it really really irriated her cyst. She has an appt this Tuesday. MDK and I have missed the bullet, so far. So next week school week will be to finish off and catch up everything before Thanksgiving, don't know what will happen on Tuesday, but MLK is living half drugged out most of the time. So not good, she is having a difficult time concentrating and being sucessful at her schoolwork, but she is giving it a good try. Now I may try to upload the music from their choir. Hoping to watch a movie, possible fold clothes and collect my thoughts. All for now

Grand Finale

Last night was the Grand Finale, the choir did such a good job, they are truely amazing choir, they have 45 kids in it this year. MLK tried out for ensemble and made it. MDK got a certificate for her chess class and showed off her poetry notebook. Dave and I sat there and just smiled, it was a special warm time.

Today we do school, sewing with Ruth, orthodonist consult for MDK, MLK works 3-4 hours, Dave goes to see Gma Kaster. It will be hard thing for him and his sister to see her as she is.

Will try to upload the song Carol of the Bells for you all, I recorded it on my camera.
Bye for now

pondering

Well I am up at 7 early for a Sat. morning. I am trying to get my thoughts down on paper for what I will say this afternoon. I have not had a stellar week, the girls want the other Mom back, cause this one is extremely grouchy and angry. My fuse this week has been maybe a half inch long. Went to the doctor changing back to the orginial and off the generic, she also took my blood again. I was tested about a year ago. The lowest a woman who is not menopausual should be anywhere in her cycle is 18 last year I was sitting at a 17. She suspects that I maybe menopausual or perimenopausual, to me it is all the same. She feels that adjustments to my normal meds may help if I am menopausual. I think that she is right. Usually when I feel off and get my meds adjusted I am weepy and such. This time it is presenting itself different, I would rather rip people's heads off and disembowel them. My pulse was 64 (low for me) and bp was 148/98 (very high for me). She said she will want to see me in a month. We were joking around and she said my apathy was in my pulse and my rage was in my blood.

MLK didnt work yesterday as they werent very busy but she did get her first paycheck which was cool, she was proud of it and I was proud of her! She is having a hard time with the hormones, it doesnt seem to be helping the cyst as she is still in a fair amount of pain, she also thinks it might be messing with her other pills.

Today we finish up some Math with MLK and lots with MDK, she has seemed to be a little better towards the end of the week, mostly because her and Dad are coming to an understanding, that would be she understands what Dad has to say about her attiude.

The house looks lots better, and the laundry is on the way, I need to do apples and finish quilts. Must find my motavation somewhere. Well better go for now.

growing up

Well this has been a few weeks of growing up for MLK, with a new job and a new puppy. She was suppose to work today but they have her on call today, will call if they need her. I hope their business does well, so MLK will have a good experience of learning to do a job outside of the home. She has done odd jobs for people but not a "real" job. She seems to be doing okay and she is keeping her school work up, which is a new level of maturity for her. She only has her Bible Doctrines and Civics left for today and she will be home free. I am unsure on Algebra as that is her and Dad's gig and I leave it alone.

MDK has started a new book, The Giver by Lois Lowry and is loving it. I have read it twice, it is really good. She has been struggling to keep up with her subjects, as she is in her not so nice I am a teenager, hear me roar funk of late. She is not enjoying her limits due to her disobedience, however she seems a little better here at the end of the week instead of at the beggining of this week.

I am going to the doctor today, ear infection I think and also changing my anti depressant, I started taking the generic form of Lexipro and it is not working as well as it should so I need to see her and get back on the Lexipro. Well that is all for now.

MLK first day of work

Yesterday was MLK first day of work, she is did okay was a little overwhelmed once and teared up, but shook it off and got through, she was tired however last night and went to bed early on her own accord. Today we will have a whole lot of stuff to get done around the house beside all the normal homework. Well better go for now.

a birthday party done

Well MLK and her three friends, (suppose to be four) went to the hotel and waterpark with me last night, got a whole lot of junk food, pizza and I slept on the roll away bed. I fell asleep around 10 and the other girls fell asleep around 1 or 2. We got up checked out and they did the waterpark one more time, got food on the way home and now we are here. I feeling a little run down as the sneezing and runny nose just keeps going.

Plan to work on the house possible sew and do apples today. All in all everyone enjoyed themselves.

More later.

keeping it quiet around the house

Well it is the early morning hours, and I am keeping everything quiet, plan to slip back to bed soon. Dave got in really late but has the route done for this week. He plans to sleep alot tommorow and take it easy on Saturday.

Today MDK will have to get up and get around as she has not been performing well, we had planned to get everything done but she balked and now has to get Math and Lit done this morning. She is doing exactly what her sister did at this age. Found a neat place to listen to stories online and so we did that last night as she misplaced her Anne of Green Gables book. She finished it off and has a few questions left to do. I keep getting very frustrated with her as she has decided she knows best and Mom is stupid. There may yet be wailing and knashing off teeth at my house.

Today is MLK b-day party and my biggest job is to stay out of the way! We are renting a room and I get the roll away bed and I will buy the junk food and I will tell them to let me sleep. I think it will be alot of fun, as there is a water park. MDK is staying with Denise and Dad is sleeping at home.

Next week I have an interpreting job everyday of the week, that is the way of it, nothing and then everything, so it will be a little nutty. Right now I am saving all my money to pay taxes this year, doesnt that sound like a whole lot of fun. I got the personal property tax yesterday, however income tax wont be pretty.

well better go.

good morning

Well woke up about 7 today, I always enjoy when I can sleep all the way through the night and hard, it makes you feel so much better. I hope today is clear and sunny, I have to finish one more senior before the nasty weather hits. Today's schedule is as follows, interpret class, meet Dave for early lunch, come home do schoolwork, pics, finish schoolwork, do chores. Wow what an interesting life I lead, not! Oh well, it is a good life.

Tommorow we have a vocal workshop any schoolwork that isnt done today (trying to get alot of it done today), and then MLK birthday party, we switched it around to limit the physical activity some. We are going to a waterpark/hotel in St. Joe. It will be alot of fun, however I may not get much sleep. Going to try to find a good book to read. I am going to be stuck on a roll away bed with 4 teenage girls in one room ( not much sleeping going on).

Tim the guy who did my old job quit and Sarah the girl that did my job at MERIL before me is being rehired. So Tim will be in the community so I will wonder how much work will actually happen for me. I told both of them I don't want huge amounts but 2-3 jobs a week is more than fine with me. I am holding my breath to see, my income doesnt pay the bills, but it has helped us get rid of debt faster and get the extras. So will just wait and see on that.

Well better get off for now.

here is another senior

a sad day for the nation

Well President Obama, makes me sad to hear that. I do however think that his personal life won't be as nutty as the last democratic. However, I am afraid of the policies that are coming around the corner. He longs for us to be like another european country. Spreading the wealth around is another name for socialism or even communism. God said as the time for his return got closer we would see this.

Well today we are going over to the office to fill in for Dave (usually he is in the office on Wed), planning to get alot of school work done. Friday we have a birthday party and a vocal workshop so must work ahead some. Plans are going to change as MLK cant be active enough to play laser tag. So I think a movie and water park.

All of us have had sneezes and running noses, due to all the harvest I quess. Louie has only had two small accidents he held his bladder for six hours yesterday, pretty amazing for such a small animal. MDK lost the small kitten, (twitch) it was so sad, she held it through the night and then it died the next day, she was deeply hurt by it all. However she is so big, she wants to deal with the pain privately. So dang hard to see your kids go through that.

MLK has started her hormones and seems to be doing okay with them. Well better get off here and get around.