Monday, September 29, 2008

okay I do like our church people

Well Dave said after awhile I would like them again, and I do. They did us proud we trained 14 church members today, to do shelter training in case of emergency. They did great putting on the church dinner and they are very much growing up in the Lord.

Tommorow will be a busy day so the next few days will be short and sweet.
Gotta go and catch some winks.

morning has broken

Well, good morning, I slept well last night and got the girls up early running them through showers. We are doing school and then we have Red Cross training at our church this afternoon. I am hoping to get alot done this morning. Dave has a Redbox meeting this afternoon and then he does the Red Cross shelter training this evening.

I am so glad I don't work at MERIL, they have had 70 percent turnover. Wow that is higher than I predicted, I predicted 60 percent. Dave says he felt that God knew what he was doing when we decided to leave MERIL. I am doing enough jobs right now to equal what I got at MERIL, it will be a little less when taxes are paid, but not bad and I work around 10-15 hours a week.

I am much better as far as the anger, it is just sometimes I feel a little fed up with all the little criticisms. Well I had better go.

Sunday, September 28, 2008

okay I am not as mad

Okay I have stepped back from the ledge and I am a nice person today. Wow was today busy, church straight to funeral, funeral dinner, Awana carnival, and then to Bible quizing. We had a good church attendance and sweet spirit.

God has a good sense of humor, because he made me teach about forgivenss in Sunday School today, w e have an awesome class for the women and it is such a sweet spirit. We are very real with each other and it is all laid out on the table.

Well better go, more tommorow.

Saturday, September 27, 2008

RAW and Anger

I woke up today and have just been raw with anger. It all started out with mowing, I mow every week, the church for free, it take around 3-4 hours every week, they do pay 10 for gas, anyway, the morning started with me overhearing complaints about how I did. So that person came back and redid the lawn. So I am officially done for this season and we will see about next year if I will do it. I am tired after 17 years I am sick of church people today. I dont like them right now! I just would rather shoot my foot thank you!

Okay I will get off here and return when I am in better mood.

Thursday, September 25, 2008

in the middle of the night

Well it is 3:30 in the middle of the night. I am up, I do this from time to time. Dave was late getting in tonight, he switched his days around because MLK had a counseling session that we both went to today. He will be in the office on Friday instead of Wednesday. He got home around 1:30 his biggest machine in St. Joe had one slot open, so he thinned 200 plus by hand in it. He also got a late start as we have a losely connected church member (he has been to our church once in ten years) that is dying of cancer. It is a sad case, as the man has many regrets in his life that I hope he can resolve before he dies. So Dave got a late start due to visiting him.

MLK was not having a good day and was poking at me trying to make me mad today. We got most everything done, (MDK and I have a little bit of writing and math to get caught up on tommorow), anyway I got mad and just went out and mowed. Mowing is good therapy sometimes, you can just rev the engine and pray and mow and mow and pray. I was able to breathe and mow at the same time which was amazing. I hadn't mowed for two weeks due to the fact that I couldnt breathe well. I am finally feeling better still a little short on energy.

Waking up in the middle of the night tends to happen to me on a monthly basis, I am wondering if it is not a hormonal thing, my hormones are definately changing with my age.

Our counseling session with MLK counselor was the best I have seen yet, I really like her, she is very good, and talked about the spiritual end of it some. MLK really likes her and the counselor and physchtrist (he mostly just works with the medicines) work well in tandem. Finally feel like we found a good pairing there. It was rather raw tonight, but got alot of things out in the air and talked through or somewhat about.

Well better go for now!

Tuesday, September 23, 2008

a hot but fun day

It was actually a little bit warm and humid today. We had a good day, I got my interpreting done and picked up the girls grabbed a quick bite to eat and then I did a photo shot for some seniors again. I enjoyed doing that did vehicles in the shot this time, rather hard, not so good at them. Anyway this senior was harder to take pictures, I think he wanted to hire a professional (not you know "mom's friend), but anyway he was a very pilote young man, you could just sense it. After that I dropped them for their classes. MDK had a new class today, she had soapmaking class, their first soap looks like a minature cherry pie and it smells so good!!! MDK has also been doing her wheel classes and she has managed to almost finsh three things, she said and then she rips them with her thumb. When she comes out it always look like she has wrestled in a mud puddle.

MLK started her writing classes today except for the night one at the college. She should be in her element for the next few months. I am much looking forward to seeing some new ways of writing for her, expand her horizons, she got her quilt back all finished she was so exicited I will have the girls hang them on the line and then we will take their pics with them. It is very pretty, she even cleaned her room and got it on her bed.

I felt some better today, a tad more energy, but when I start to get tired I start coughing and then it is just downhill from there. I got to coughing about 5 tonight, and so when I got home around 8 I downed the cough syrup with the codiene hate how it makes me feel.

Gazelle intensity, is what Dave Ramsey says in Fincinial Peace University, it is where you make sacrifices and do without things, well cars have been were we have pared back. Three paid off vehicles, need small repairs now and again, those small repairs can be somewhat annoying. Well the latest thing with Blue, is that the lock jammed shut on the drivers side door, so now I have to crawl out the other side, Kevin plans to fix it if he can, he is quite the handy guy when it comes to cars. I have so appreciated him, I think we need to get him a gift certificate to Home Depot so he can go in what I call Toolland (similar to Candyland).

Been enjoying homeschooling and life alot lately, minus being sick I really like this freelance thing, it has worked well fincinally for us and it is wonderful for schedules, I have been able to do vball this year with the girls, they will be doing a vocal workshop this next week, and so much more time to do things like the quilting and such. So glad I left MERIL after all the rotten things that have happened to my co workers there. God was good to bless us and direct us when it came to all of that.

Well get off for now

Monday, September 22, 2008

400th post

Yes I have posted 400 times, this has been a great outlet for me, a way to clear my head to struggle through the mundane, to higlight the good stuff.

Today MLK is sound asleep fighting off an allergic reaction to her antiboditic, there is no school today at the household as we are in much need of a recoup from illness day. We have kept her on Bendryl yesterday and today, thinking that will help with the reaction and also help her sleep, she comes up to eat and then off to sleepy world. We had her do the nebulizer also (we call it our own personal bong).

MDK has been such a blessing, her and I have dedicated ourselves to finding the house and doing laundry, she has been such a trooper. I have a limited amount of energy, I can work for about an hour and then rest and then work, rest. I am still not healed, I am much much better but still a ways off from normal.

Dave went with Denise home to take Gma Kaster to the eye doctor and to sit down with their Dad to make some decision on behalf of her welfare. She is not well and living alone is becoming dangerous to her. This is a hard decision for the family and Dave and Denise will give some objectivity to the decision that must be made. It is hard to see your parents have to make these decisions for their parents, all you can do is lend a shoulder and give opinions when asked.

Tommorow starts eight week classes (MLK writing class she is looking forward to) so that is what we hope to get better for. So far today MDK and I have gotten the kitchen and bathroom conquered and two loads of laundry. She has been awesome help for me since I have pretty much not been a great help to anyone this last week and a half, I remember being sick in college and how you had to do what needed done to get by, I have not had anything take so much reserves out of me. My ankle injury limited mobility but this took the zap right out of me.

Well better get back to work for awhile.

Saturday, September 20, 2008

this is too dang early

Well I am up at 5 in the morning. This is too dang early, MDK and I are going to her vball game, MLK came down with a fever and yuck yesterday, took her to the doctor yesterday. I felt pretty rough yesterday and slept off and on yesterday.

Today after the game we plan to take it easy and try to all get better. I will try to clean house some and do laundry, but not try to conquer a thing other than maybe this illness. I am really tired of feeling this way.

Dave and I had a bit of time last night to go for a ride and just enjoy each other company, we try to carve that out for ourselves at least once a week, it doesnt need to be anything fancy. It is important though.

My nephew turns 1 today, boy time goes fast, he is such a cutie! Well better jump in the shower and get on the road.

Thursday, September 18, 2008

sometimes I am not nice

The girls keep saying I am a grouch, I think they maybe telling the truth. I felt so awful I could not stop coughing yesterday. I also am coughing so deep and hard that sometimes I lose my bladder control, that is not fun! So I drink my codine cough syrup and am loppy then a pet coon. I still have little energy and my ears are clogged. I hate to go back to the doctor. Dave is going to try to sleep most of today to see if he can feel better. MDK and MLK seem to have missed the bullet.

Today is catch up on laundry, get some rest, finish off school and not conquer too much day. Tommorow morning bright and early we have a vball tournament then we will proably go to the country harvest (if I am up to it).

My camera quit working last night when I was taking a senior's picture, the counter had filled up I had taken since i got the camera 99-9999 pictures, so I found out how to reset the camera and it is working good now. I was upset thinking it was a goner. Do have my eyes set on a Epson s-50 rebel. It would be able to have interchangeable lens. Doesn't that sound exicting, it is only 550 dollars (not something I can afford right now).

Well must shower and get the kids up.

grumpy and p.off

Well, I am in a grumpy mood the girls said. I started the day early and I am still not shaking the remenants of this virus. I am getting really warned out, not sick enough to need to hit the bed but not well enough to feel nice and friendly either. So I am willing to admit I am a grump.

MLK was having an off day and her own little pity party, which I decided to interupt, so that grew to be lots of fun. We have however managed to finish off Science for the week, and got most all the subjects up to date. She is doing diatoms and asexual reproduction and algae and all that stuff. I am not extremely concerned that she is A+++ in that but that she has been exposed to this information and is able to digest information written at this level. She seems to hold her own.

MDK had a huge headache I think from the Algebra :). She helped me out by mowing the lawn (most of it, will finish tommorow). She is now out playing with friends and feeling so good. Ugh!


I am just really cross, feeling yucky and down and still trodding forward tends to put me in a pissy mood. Well better quit complaining and get off here.

Wednesday, September 17, 2008

couldn't hear the fat lady sing


Wow last night I took the codeine cough sryup when I got home and I passed out (couldnt hear the fat lady sing). I had some labored breathing, when I was talking to Mom I would just get winded, it is amazing how fast you can go from really healthy to really sick. However I am on the upswing. Today I have two jobs then one more on Thursday and done for this week. Friday is our craft day. (MDK and I). We are holding our own with schoolwork with the onslaught of germs. MLK was feeling rough today, so we will see how she fairs today. Her and Dad have lots of Algebra to do today. Dave was wiped out, they caught his early but he put in a big day yesterday. MDK seems to be over the crude.


I may try to mow today(or MDK) when I get home we will see how I feel but the rains made the grass really really long really fast. Hope we can also get lots of laundry done today, it has been such beautiful days out.


I am loving taking pictures of seniors, I feel like I am learning so much and blessing people. It is a place where I have complete creativity and spontinety. I go at it with much abandon and passion. In life there are some many regular things (chores, job, etc) that getting to do something you love and are passionate about is so great. Well better go for now.


This pic is MLK quilt top isnt it cute

Tuesday, September 16, 2008

and yet another senior




coughing up green gobers

Well I think I might survive, wow the medicine is sure kicking in, I am feeling some better today just coughing up all the loose stuff in my lungs now, I can actually breathe now. Breathing is such a good thing.

Yesterday we finished MLK quilt and dropped it off. Ruth is such a great gal, and so patient with my girls now we are starting on a quilt for Aunt Denise birthday. We all three will work on it at her house and then we will try to do one on our own at home.

Today I take pictures again, I am thick and heavy in pictures, but loving it, I feel like this is a minstry I can do for families associated through church and homeschooling.

Well better quit, and get on the road.

Sunday, September 14, 2008

some senior pics




let me rephrase that . . . really sick

Wow, it is amazing what a little bug can do to your body! I woke up Sat. and was completely drained after sleeping almost 10 hours thought I better call the doctor. Got in at 11, I just kept going downhill. She said I had brochintais working on pnuemonia. She gave me a whole bunch of stuff and ordered lots of fluids and bedrest till Monday or Tuesday of next week at least.

So she gave me a huge double dose of steriods (she said it was equaviliant to about 2 dose of perdizone packs) in the butt in a big shot. Then she gave me Z-pac medicine(double strength). She gave me musinex (2 every 12 hours), codiene cough sryup, and nubulizer treatment (2x day) with Alburtol and Isnomostric (sp?). I think she thought it needed to be fought quick and hard! I have 5 pills of Z each cost me 12 dollars a piece after insurance, they had better work well!!! Dave says alot cheaper than a hospital bill. Feeling some better this morning, still really weak.

Dave had a ton of stuff to do yesterday, not many people volunteered to help out with the special stuff going on today, so it was a late night for him, plus he had to take care of getting my meds and getting me to the doctor. MLK was having a bad day (too much bad weather), hiding isolating herself, curling up in a ball crap. So I gave her some choices of what she could do, obviously I was just too sick to try to take care of it all, she choose to go to Aunt Denise so that was helpful.

I am missing out on a big Sunday today, as they are doing a "family reunion" special Sunday. We will be doing a family tree (cut out 150 so leaves) and they will be filled out to do contact information. Also a memory book and a memory video, Dave is talking about the altar of rememberance set up by the children of Isreal. I hope it is a good service and a morale booster for leadership.

MDK was sick on Friday, but doesnt seem to have a secondary infection like I did, however the doc says keep her on Musinex for a few days (over the counter) to keep things loose.

School has been going as well as possible with such a sick MOM, MDK has makeup work and MLK has a few dangling things to tie off. Mostly a final draft on her report and some Marine biology( on computer, computer unavailabe). Hope I feel alot better on Tues. It is our long day in town, we are in there from 9 am to 8pm. Then I am only usually there on Thurs(interpret). and then I will be there on Sat. for vball. I just feel it is important to have them involved in something extracirrcular. MLK is so looking forward to her writing classes (2 with the group, 1 at the college) she loves that genre so much. MDK is loving her wheel throwing, was coated with splatter from head to toe. She is also enjoying her poetry class (much to her suprise) they are working on Cinquins right now, finished up Hikus. MLK is not enjoying ACT prep class (too bad!), she is enjoying Choir, and MDK is tolerating Choir. They are maybe going to have some vocal workshops in St. Joe coming up hoping I can go for MLK sake and drag MDK along. I do the reverse for vball, MDK sake drag MLK along. MLK was so not for choir in 7th grade, but she has enjoyed it and shown real talent. We watched MacBeth this week since MLK finished it. MLK will start a Midnight Summer Dream this week, then Othello after that then we will discuss the rest of the books for the year focusing on English lit. She really has read a remarkable list of books on what is called the Books for College Bound Students.

Been pondering and planning for MDK high school years, have always know that MLK wants to go onto a four year college. Have not fiqured out MDK, I see here doing more of a technical education. So I also will not gear her high school so hard on the lit, but will gear it hard on the Math end of things. MDK will have more math and science, MLK has more history and lit. Also electives will look some different. MLK will have more artsy fartsy and MDK will have more domestic arts and skills. I will proably do a inventory interest thing for her at the end of this year.

I am so rambling here, quess the boredom has set in. I will go ahead and sign off for now. Also will post some new senior pictures again.

Saturday, September 13, 2008

sick

Well I have been sick all week mostly, feeling really fatiqued from it all. Poor MLK has been my nursemaid, since MDK came down with it too. I hate feeling so run down. I would get up do something and then be sitting for about half hour. Really weak in the knees. It is a virus and not allergies because I have ran a fever unless of course it is a secondary infection. MLK has been a trooper through it.

Yesterday as MDK and I snotted and whined, we watched MacBeth since MLK had finished her play. Then we watched a show on pioneers which MDK is doing, we pieced are way through some subjects, admist blowing noses and naps, plan to do more of the same today. Our family hasn't been sick since the puck from your toes stuff we had in Jan. or Feb.

Pray that tommorow goes well for our church as I think it would be a big boost for morale. The lawn doesnt even look like I mowed on Wed with all the rain. Looks like hurricane Ike might dump a whole lot more rain on us later this week.

Well more later when I feel better

Wednesday, September 10, 2008

high on bendryl

Well I am blogging from the living room, I finally took a bendryl, the ragweed is killing me. I had to mow the lawn today as it is to rain rain rain the next few days maybe untill Sunday. We had 22 in our old people lunceon they are a group that is doing well. Also got alot of school work done now having the girls finish their chores.

Denise was to drive with MLK tommorow but their car tire got messed up so they are postponing that untill Sunday. Tommorow is vball practice. I also interpret in the morning. We have gotten most everything done and are on track again with our studies. Bible doctrines class will be introduced once MLK meds get on the right track adding more studies would not be helpful right now. Also that subject we only need to do twice a week so it will be good. I plan to do three years of Bible for high school so it will work out. MDK started a wheel throwing class (pottery) at the college, she really enjoyed it. MLK will have a writing class out there in Oct. We are very busy now with extra classes, sports, art and such as it is still good weather. When the weather is gone we will then be slowing down on all the extras. However I find that this stuff is good for their overall experience.

I took senior pictures again yesterday, now to find the cord to download them and work on them. I always put it in my camera bag and then it disappears. It is amazing how it grows legs and just takes off, so many of my things have the same ability.

I really do hope that this stuff I have is just allergies and not a cold, if it rains it should settle it down.

Well off for now, see my head it is floating away as I type . . .

Sunday, September 7, 2008

sometimes it's hard

Enjoyed reading my sister's blog, it is hard being the parent that flows agaisnt the stream. I hate to let her know this is only the beggining. I see alot of parents give up when the kids start turning 14-16. Then the kids go wild or become spoiled brats. I just have to remind myself when I get worn out from it all, it is not in their best interest to allow them always to have their way.

Yesterday volleyball was alot of fun, it was a nice time with the whole family together. MLK served three game points . MDK was getting all of her serves over by the end of the day and feeling much more confident, now she must get her bump under control, it has a tendency to go wherever, MLK has a little more control but I think she will also improve in this area, however both lack the height to spike the ball. We will have a total of six games so that is good. Practices are every Thursday. We were gone from 8-2 and the girls won six out of 8 games (not matches).

In hope of getting some stuff caught up around the house today and this week. MLK is quilting with Ruth tommorow. The girls are so enjoying her and also learning alot. Well better go!

Saturday, September 6, 2008

vball just too dang early

We are up way too early on a Sat. morning!! Their first game is at 8 so we have to leave this morning at 7, yuck! Oh well, they seem to be exicitied and then they will go to friends house this afternoon. (after they finish their room)

Today I will help Dave get caught up on his church work and then I am in hope that I can get some grades in and see where we are. It has been a rather rough week with MLK adjusting to her medicines so I know that she is behind some due to the lack of concentration and ability to actually focus. Waiting to see if her meds are right for her and the new diagnosis is correct, wont be able to judge for about 2 to 3 weeks.

Dave is really having a hard time with his Gma Kaster as she keeps getting worse mentally. He says sometimes that is harder than if she were just gone. He says it is like losing pieces of her little at a time.

Well off to the showers!

Friday, September 5, 2008

I was so tired

Wow yesterday I was so tired and worn out. I took a pillow and blanket with me to vball practice yesterday and while they were in practice I slept for a whole hour in my car. I can rarely sleep that way but I was tired, then I went to bed at 9:30. I was having trouble interpreting yesterday because I was so tired.

MLK has had a rough week, and I feel sometimes I am the blunt of it all. That is more than I can bear sometimes. However I just bear down and pull through.

Today I interpret at King City and then after that I will come home and finish off everything that needs to get done to finish off school for the week.

Well better get around before long.

Wednesday, September 3, 2008

a rollercoaster ride

MLK is not having a great week, her emotions have been all over the map and she has had alot of panic attacks of late. I am just worn out, and tired of it all. I feel so guilty about just wanting not to have to deal with it. I want very much for it to all go away. I want normal back. Today we go to the pyschtrist and the counselor. It will be a very busy day. I got a call at 10:30 so I will be interpreting this morning. Will take MLK work with us and do it at the library.

Tommorow is vball practice and then we have a game this weekend. The blue car died last night so it is at Dtone and then my purple car needs some work on the struts.

Well better go

Monday, September 1, 2008

Huzzah and reflection

Today we went to the Renniasance festival, the girls had some friends S and P (sisters) go with. They went off in pairs and had a great time. They watched falconary, jousting, sword fighting, danced the maypole, watched the queen and king, had a pirate hit on them. All in all a great time. Dave and I meandored around, I would go for about 35 minutes then a break as that is the most time I can get out of my ankle. Enjoyed the music as much as anything. We ate turkey legs wow that is a bunch of meat. It was good! We came on home, Dave is cooking supper (spaghetti) tonight.

This week will be a short week for school due to doing this outing today (which will be considered a field trip also). I knew that when we started so that is why we started out a little before everyone. I will have three interpreting jobs this week, the girls have vball practice and game. A few meetings at the church should keep us busy.

Reflection- well today is Mom's birthday and I was thinking of how the three of us have such different stages of life, Mom has no kids at home anymore , my kids will be leaving in a few years, and Bren has alot of years left. I wonder if I were to rewind if I would do things different overall. I just dont know. I get jealous of other stages, like how sweet and cuddly they are when they are young and how you are the hero and youre not stupid. Then I think of Mom and how wise she is compared to when I was a teen :) How she can somewhat make her own schedule and she has her days to do with as she wishes. I also know that there are drawback to every stage. That I must enjoy each moment, it is funny how we are always looking forward or looking back. Maybe I must just look at now. Enjoy the moment. Breathe it in, and sit for a spell.

Well need to eat the spaghetti.

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