at the tent

I was at the tent yesterday afternoon, had a few customers but just sat and read alot. My ankle and leg are finally back to normal and I am hoping to get moving again. The humidity is just not kind to it. I will weigh in tommorow and hope to have lost more. I did have chocolate last night (just a tad), so hope that doesnt deep six me. Today I will go with Dave to two funerals. He has a crazy busy week of redbox and church (mostly church) stuff.

Yesterday he preached a wonderful sermon straight from the heart, people responded to God's calling and it was good. Afterwards L. says see you can preach under a half hour. Why come to church with that attiude? That made me angry but I sinned not! I have a gut feeling that with all the trouble they have produced God will not suffer much longer with them.

Got MLK scheduled to start her art classes with a lady in our church, hope to get MDK back to sewing. Tonight I have to fiqure out MS calender that I had training on. Well better go for now.

nervous and scared and exicited

Well, I paid for my lap band procedure so no going back now. I have all the paperwork in, have a surgeon appt for July 21. I have ten lbs to go before then. I will weigh in on Tuesday and go to the support group. I am not really nervous about having the surgery, I am scared about the what if . . . I so desperately want this to work, and the last thing I need to hear mentally right now is a big bunch of its all your choice crap. It is a huge step and I really dont want any skinny people telling me what they think they know about weight struggles.

I have completely switched my depression meds now, off one and on to the other. I am still a little foggy and a little bit tired, really have to wait 2 weeks to see the full results of the meds. The doctor said that different meds will become ineffective after so many years. So right now I am on wellbeutrion. We will see what comes of it. I am having clearer moments but not constantly. I have not been an emotional wreck but rather the ability to think clearly has been the biggest sign that my meds were not working. I was driving along and headed to Iowa and kinda come out of my thoughts and I quess I missed my turn and had no clue where I was going and how to get where I needed to. I did this when I was in Hopkins when I was not doing well and it had been years since that had happened. Also I was interpreting and I signed banana for corn (whoa). I knew I was not hitting on all cylinders. However my mood has been rather flat, so the doctor said I might be "presenting" differently as I am going into menopause (according to my blood tests). So the doctor thinks that why this depression dip has lasted so long is that the lexapro is no longer working effectively for me.

This week is the fireworks tent for alot of my week, however I got some good books and plan to read at the tent also. MLK is a tad grouchy due to the steriod pills but her posion oak is starting to disappear. Well better go for now!

fireworks tent

I have been trying to get on my blog for a few days but it wouldnt load right but now I am finally on here. Dave MLK and I and crew put up stock all day yesterday at the tent, then night before that we put up tent. With this high humidity my ankle and leg are twice as big as the other. I restricted myself to staying off of it but today I will need to be completely off it to get the swelling under control. It is the humidity. The girls are going to have to help out around the house so I can get off this foot today.

Had training on email and calender as they will be doing this to give out interpreter jobs. MDK got home yesterday she said that this week was a little more trying as she had a pair of sisters that were pills. Well I will go for now as I need to head to the tent around 7.

what I think, how I feel

Yesterday was at the glorified babysitting job again, wow that was boring, it was a series of movies and recess. I almost finished another book, they did have one speaker that I did interpret for. I am awfully afraid that someday they will have year around school, which I think is so not good. I do not like the fact that kids are constantly plugged in somewhere, they have so little free time to explore, be bored, imagine, read books, build things, create. Character counts is a big thing here in MO right now. When did parents give that up? Church and parents build character and teach that not schools. Character without scriptural basis is like a duck without feathers. It is devoid abstract thing. Also when can teachers truely get down to teaching if they have to also teach character , and the million other things that take away from the basics. I truely think that if we dont get back to the basics of reading, writing and math. Our nation will suffer terribly.

The fireworks tent is looming large, looks like I might be living there. Oh well so much fun. I have a job with the crazy one today and then I have a rub elbows dinner I have to go to tonight.

My change of meds made me a little dopey last night. Dave was really exhausted from the heat last night. I went to bed around 10 and slept really really hard. MLK is doing a little better after her steriod shot yesterday but she may yet need the pills too. She is pretty miserable with the poision oak. MDK is off at camp, hope she is doing okay as hot as it is. We will pick her up around 5:30 on Friday.

Well better get off here and get around.

Glorified babysitting

Well back to interpret glorified babysitting, I mean summer school. I interpreted next to nothing yesterday, almost finishing reading a book. Another day of that. The fireworks tent is coming right up and I will be doing a lot of time at it. It is a huge money maker for our youth group so it is worthwile I tell myself as I sweat like a pig!!!

MDK went back to camp as a leader yesterday. MLK got a shot for her bad case of posion oak. I changed meds, Dave went with me and explained that I was functioning as well as usual so I am changing them.

I also hit the half way mark with my weight so 10 more lbs and off to surgery. Paid off a huge chunk of debt last night also. Well to the showers and off to work.

I woke up screaming baking soda

I have no clue why I woke up screaming baking soda, but I sure did. I had one very restless night of sleep, I think I was breaking a fever. Feel a little wiped out this morning and still feel sick. I got home from visiting my sister and had sneezed all the way home and was getting snotty so I laid down and slept for four hours, woke up feeling rough and went to bed early. It was one of those nights were you chill get hot throw covers chill again. Lots of bizzare dreams too.
Kids got home at noon yesterday, they had a great time, their team won first place, MDK passed her evanglism test and MLK memorized the whole book of Phillipians (double wow). They blobbed into the lake giggled had great sermons and good spiritual time also.

Today is Father's Day and Dave wants steak and a nap! Sounds good also got him Perry Mason series which he is enjoying.

Had a good time at Brenda watching her kids and remembering that stage of life. Well better go for now.

clean and bum

Well today I am cleaning and I have no where to go and no one to look after other than the dog (which is a job when his Ma Ma is gone, as he gets worked up about that). I have so far slept in till 8:30 and got the white shelf cleaned off under the computer desk cleaned out. Got some laundry going. Planning on staying in pj as long as I can stand myself. I had a job interpreting but it got canceled so that happens. I have only two jobs this week and four next then nothing for a while which is good since I will be doing the fireworks tent at the end of this month. I am not really sure how much I will get done today or if I really plan to do much. I just am glad to have the train of life stop for a moment. Well better get on with the bumming will report later if anything got done or not.

well why I havent posted

Well I havent been posting as regularly as I usually do, I have just not felt like it. I went down on my meds with the doctors approval and that was not good. I was feeling some overmedicated and so the doc said lets try this, well I am going back up to my other dose, as I am really struggling again. I see the fog bank come rolling in. I am very suprised at how long and intense this struggle this time around has been. I am not crying and stuff, however I have a severe case of the I dont care and I just want to sleep and sleep and sleep. Then I am waking up in the middle of the night again. So it is time to just take the higher dose and take a nap if I get too tired.

Today is our celebration of 10 years here at Fairport, it will be interesting to see what they do. The girls go to camp tommorow, and Dave and I are getting away for a moment. Well best get off for now.

early to bed early to rise

Wow I was tired last night, so I went to bed at 8:30, Dave came home early from his route he is sick as a dog and has a funeral today. This maybe a long week for him, hope the extra sleep helped him some. I am up early have to be in Maryville at 7:30 way too early. I have decided summer school is a glorified babysitting service mostly. Maybe this one will be different.

Need to pick my gooseberries and work on decluttering tonight, MLK drives today. I hope everything goes well. Life is Beautiful I got out of the library, very very good movie. Well I had better get on the road for the long journey.

unearthed

Well we unearthed some messes that MDK left us, she was a stinker. She has been on a bum streak for a few weeks and she left us a mess. MLK has been a trooper about it all, she and I got the kitchen where it needed to be, her more than me as I had a bunch of work yesterday. She was great and we had a great talk last night about life in general.

We cleaned at the church with the youth group for about 2 and 1/2 hours and boy does it look good downstairs old part. Today I am hoping to declutter again, but this time at my house. The youth has one more day to get their part of the church in order.

I have a job today and tommorow I have to get up really early for that job. Well best get around for now.

my blogging didnt post

I blogged yesterday a great big bunch yesterday but it failed to post. So this will be a short burst of blogging. Sunday morning trying to get the girls awake and through the bathroom. They can be quite contrary upon awaking.

Yesterday was full of little things to get done, we watched a old movie with James cooper in it, it was really good. I am hoping to do some decluttering today but we will wait and see how it goes. One of our older ladies in the nursing home passed away yesterday. Dave will have her funeral this week.

Today is full of stuff to do so I had better get off and get around.

learning family shots

okay okay I will blog

I have been neglecting my blogging or so says my sister. I have been extremly busy this week I knew I would be. It is such a long way to Grant City, and been bored most of the day, last night I didnt get home till almost 9. Took my first batch of family pictures. I will working on them this evening. Last day on this job, yeah. I am looking forward to being done. I sometimes feel like summer school is a glorified baby sitting service.

I think kids of yesteryear had a good thing going, that of being bored and having to create their own fun. It is something we need kids to be more creative, anyway just a thought. Well I need to go get in the shower so more later.

Bored off my kester

Well almost done with my big summer school assignment. I was so tired yesterday, hadnt slept well, and yesterday was so boring, I really didnt interpret much at all yesterday the kids at the school spent most of the day playing on the computer, so I read my book I brought, when at school I always bring a book. They have a teachers aide there in the classroom, and she has yet to smile in three days. She is an old bear! She seems to be one of those unpleasant types. Steering clear of her. The kid does okay watching me, but is like all kids in the middle of the summer easily distractable.

I have been extremly reflective off late, guess turning 39 does that to you. Just kinda wondering if and what I have done with my life so far, what I want to do in the future stuff like that. Well I had better get around and head to work again.